Thursday, March 27, 2008

It's Raining McCain and I want an Umbrella!

I seem to be on a video kick lately, sorry about that. But this post is a little political as well. The video that you may have seen or heard of by now is by the "McCain Girls" and is called "It's Raining McCain", basically to the tune of "It's Raining Men" by the Weather Girls. It's not very well sung and has been made constant fun off on my favorite radio station - Air America, but I think it is funny, creative and well done. So even though I cannot think of a scarier future than a McCain presidency, these girls get A for effort (and F- for judgment).

And since we are on the topic, I want to make a few points about the upcoming election. The bickering between Obama and Hillary has become legendary at this point, with many people calling for Hillary to drop out, or for them to get along, and what's worse, with supporters from both camps claiming that they will not for the nominee if it's not the one they support at the moment. I think this is a tragedy. Whatever Hillary's and Obama's perceived shortcomings are, and whatever tactics are being used at the moment, there would be nothing worse than a McCain presidency. I believe in this so strongly, I may be willing to leave the country if he gets elected. At some point in the not too distant past I used to think that along with Colin Powell McCain was one of the only Republicans who had his head and and heart on straight. He had opposed the torture tactics used by the military today, supported a path to citizenship for immigrants, and had at some point even showed vague disagreement with the Bush administration. Now, much like Lieberman and Dean, he is unrecognizable from his former self. He voted against, and supported the president's veto of HR 2082, the Intelligence Authorization Act for Fiscal Year 2008, which included provisions that would have prevented the CIA from waterboarding prisoners, even though he had stated that waterboarding is torture. He has stated that he does not understand economics, wants to privatize social security, and is completely confused about the Middle East, which he proved over and over again last week when he insisted on stating that Iran was trading Al Qaeda (he 'misspoke at least 5 times, at the very least he is senile!). He jokes about bombing Iran and staying in Iraq for hundreds of years. Not to mention that in all other aspects he is still a Republican, which means that his beliefs and priorities are counter everything that is near and dear to me. So if you are a Democrat, or even a Republican who is sick and tired of the selfish and inapt government we have in power now, you better swallow your pride and stubbornness and vote for whichever Democrat gets the nomination.

Update: The McCain Girls videos, it turns out, were created by satirical website 23/6 (, which is itself affiliated with the Huffington post. Read more here.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Bulgarian Idol

I don't watch American Idol. In fact I don't watch TV at all, but I came across this little video online. Apparently there are American Idol spin-offs in almost every country now, and this performance is from Bulgarian singer Nevena Tsoneva (Невена Цонева) who won the first season's competition there in 2007. I think this is the best rendition of Whitney's "I will always love you" I've ever heard, and it's completely hilarious to boot! I hope you enjoy the video as much as I did!

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Woman Stuck to Toilet

Here I was complaining about my silly little emetophobia, when this poor woman was putting herself through an unimaginable ordeal! I am sure you've heard the story, but just to recap, the unnamed Kansas woman had begun about two years ago to hang out more and more in the bathroom of her boyfriend's mobile home. Eventually she stopped leaving the bathroom entirely, though according to the boyfriend, 37 year old Kory McFarren, she would still move around, bathe and change into fresh clothing. About a month ago, however, she had apparently stopped leaving the toilet seat entirely, developed sores and infections, which lead to nerve damage and physically grafted her to the toilet seat. McFarren finally called 911 when she began to be incoherent or out of it, and they took her, along with the attached seat to the hospital. The man is now being charged with mistreatment of a dependent adult, while the woman is being said to be uncooperative with medical staff and authorities. The entire situation was precipitated by some events in the woman's past, neglect or abuse, in which she was locked in her parent's house. Additionally the woman's mother had died when she was young.
I have mixed feelings about this, of both shock, disgust, a scary kind of understanding, and a guilty happiness over being much more sane. Our minds are scary places, not easily fixed, and without which even a healthy body is worthless.

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall. Humpty Dumpty had a great fall...

Monday, March 17, 2008

Comic of the Day

This is Pearls Before Swine. I am not sure why I find this hilarious.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

I can't believe I'm saying this...

... but I love Britney's come-back. I thought "Give me more" was great. Then "Piece of Me" came out and I liked it even better. And now the latest video, "Break the Ice", made it's debut and I love it too! Whatever might be going on in her crazy life, and whether or not all these songs are super produced and fixed up, they are so much fun. Here it is!

Thursday, March 6, 2008

The things we carry....

Lord I haven't posted in ages!
We are long back from our vacation now. I dreamt about the ocean every night but the dreams have stopped now, which makes me really sad. In fact I am entirely out of sorts lately. I don't know if it's the cold weather, the monotony of my life, or who knows what else, but I just feel down.

Last week was especially trying and now that it's behind me I think it's time for a little public service announcement. You see I have something called emetophobia, which in essence is a fear of vomit. There are several types and levels of severity, but most of us emetophobes are terrified to death of getting sick. To give you an example of just how serious this is, there have been instances of people jumping out of moving vehicles to get away from a car-sick individual. I myself once jumped out of a window, which thankfully was not high enough to cause too much damage, but I sure as heck did not care at the time. At another instance I sat paralyzed in a parking lot for two hours while halfway through my 6 hour car trip, unable to even think about starting the car.

It's funny that we can't always pinpoint how or why our fears emerge. My first memory of the phobia is from when I was about 10 or 11 years old, but the object of a fear such as this is usually just the tip of the iceberg, masquerading as a tropical island. There are so many layers that it is hard, if not impossible to get through, but at the core is the fear of loosing control. It certainly goes along with my personality - impressionable, self-aware, imaginative and uptight. But mostly, at the center of everything, I am frightened. Afraid of making choices, afraid of being alone, afraid of being sick, and afraid of living. Maybe because living means taking responsibility, maybe because living means that someday you will die. It is counterintuitive, and illogical, but no one ever said that mental illness is a rational undertaking.

This past week a stomach flu was running rampant in my work place. My boss and one of my coworkers got sick. I am pleased that despite a surge in my phobic feelings I handled it all very well, which is to say that I went to work every day, and had very few panic attacks. All in all it is a great improvement. In contrast, almost five years ago today, back when I was still in college and living in a dorm, I had spent nearly a week without leaving my room and without eating! I distinctly remember taking several hours to eat half a banana. The reason was not illness, I was too afraid to eat.

I know it does not make much sense. People who have never gone insane cannot grasp it. I think it was in "Girl, interrupted" where Susanna compares mental illness to a parallel universe. "People ask, How did you get in there? What they really want to know is if they are likely to end up in there as well. I can't answer the real question. All I can tell them is, It's easy." Some people slip in suddenly, others slowly by creating small opening until they fall in. "Another odd feature of the parallel universe is that although it is invisible from this side, once you are in it you can easily see the world you came from." I remember watching "The Hours" with my family. I was so overcome with the emotions of the women in the movie I could almost taste them, because I knew what they felt, if only because I'd glimpsed it. I told my mother it was one of the most powerful movies I'd seen. Mom said she did not feel the same, but probably because she was too sane.

Still, I feel very optimistic. Husband thinks I am paying off some karma. If nothing else I have learned very valuable lessons about myself, about surviving, and about fear itself. It is almost like an old friend now, familiar and much easier to deal with. Perhaps it means that someday when it counts, I will not be made useless by my emotions.

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